I used to be a straight A student
Now I’m not even straight
It took many years of vomiting up all the filth I’d been taught about myself, and half-believed, before I was able to walk on this earth as though I had a right to be here.
What’s been the thing that surprised you most about college? The thing you didn’t expect from the experience and the thing that you didn’t expect from YOU. xo
Coming out of high school, I could not have forseen how radically different my values would be in three years, and how many transitional phases they would go through. I was a vastly different person then and didn’t know how to take care of myself. Like I couldn’t run for literally a minute then and now I’m running all over the place for fun even when I should be doing other things, and got up extra early this morning so I could get punched in the face and lead ab exercise class for the boxing team.
I certainly didn’t expect how many times I would move between friends, and be better for it. I guess that’s part of growing up and realizing self worth and blargh de blargh blargh. I still have to figure out how to do it without being a total asshole though.
But there a lot of things I cared about when I was 17 that I don’t care about now and a lot of things I would sacrifice a lot of other things in my life for to retain now that would seem absurd then. Mostly health, I guess. Physical and emotional.
I didn’t expect to have such an absurdly good time, either. I came to college without particularly high expectations, and have had such a lovely time, mostly.
Also that I’d be getting a masters degree in marketing whaaaaaatttttt.